So just hush, baby. Shut up. Heard enough. Stop stop stop talking that Blah blah blah!

Stupid catchy bullshit song.

I decided that I’m not going to actively be the first to make plans with friends. I will obviously invite myself to gatherings if conversation arises and things like that, but since I’ve been pretty much begging people to realize I’m free and have them go “omgokcool!” and then they do JACK SHIT, I feel like their shitty friends. I shouldn’t be the one to constantly attack someone to hang out. I’m not below you. So I just won’t do it. And when you wonder why we don’t hang out, realize friendship is a relationship. It’s not all about your time. Take time to care. And by time I mean calling my house phone. Don’t try texting : ) I. Don’t. Have. A. Phone. It’s not that hard to say hello, trust me! : D

My generation is sooo fucked. Lol. Soo fucked. It’s /so/ pathetic. Have fun with your little texting infatuations.

School has been going…somewhat easier. My class of much older peers is pretty great. They aren’t young and stupid and judgmental. I think I’m making a couple more friends in my tues. and I know I have a handful in my weds. This is a big deal, sadly. I don’t live there…so nobody ever has the time of day. They’re too busy humping their dorm mates.

But I’m eager because I’ve been invited to a few things..and I’m good friends with connections…and there’s going to be a couple of productions here and there…more involvement. Hopefully.

Class wise…I’m catching up. And I’ve finally started making something I care about. Hooooboy. Took a long time, huh?

My job luck though….uuuuuuuuugh. I don’t…fucking know. I’m serious. I’ve seriously…looked into almost every job. I got a fuck ton of Nos, which destroys your will to continue, and a ton of Oh yea we’re hiring! and then nothing. And I keep pestering. But they’re hiring “soon”. Somebody please just fucking die so I can have your damn job as a stupid minimum wage bitch. Please?

But I don’t know. I just…don’t know. I wish I could just get up and abruptly leave here and never come back..but I’m not that much of an asshole yet.